I knew it! I knew I'm not going to get accepted to the University of Tampere! But it doesn't matter, I was accepted to SEDU, an vocational school. In two years I'll be either a cook or a waitress. I haven't decided yet.
Last two hours I've been scrolling through Seinäjoki folk high school's list of courses. Now it seems like I'm going to spend 200 euros there. Enrolling starts in 17.08. and I have four courses I'm going to enroll. Two theater groups, folk singing and Finnish sign language. I think I'll have to drop some of them out because I may not have enough time since I have to start studying for next year's entrance examinations. Yes, I don't know which books we have to read and yes, I'm going to read this year's because I think it would be helpful.
I think I'm the one who is going to study forever. I'm addicted to it. I enjoy the way markers, notebooks and books smell. I love the 'I know way too much and now my head is going to explode' feeling. Of course I'm always self-ironic because I never did my homework. If I did, it was five minutes before class started and in first six grades I looked answers from Simo or Jerry. I don't know how I passed most of my classes because all what I did was sleeping the book under my pillow. Really.
So now when I'm having withdrawal symptoms from studying, I'm doing something that most of people says isn't normal. I'm studying in HogwartsIsHere. Yes. In web!Hogwarts. And you guys thought I couldn't get any crazier. Well, I've always managed to surprise everyone. I'm a first-year Slytherin. My favourite class is History of Magic. Oh my gods I'm starting to sound like Hermione. now. I'm also taking Disney Literature Weeks, they're so interesting! We really analyze the movies and compare them to the original stories.
I really like the fact that something like this is made by Harry Potter fans. Disney Lit Week lessons are like from my upper secondary school's Finnish literature classes. Except more fun when it's being about Disney AND optional. Of course I'm thrilled to take Charms and Potions to see how they are done. How we are going to practice spells and brewing potions without really doing it. It's exciting to see! I've liked the way the classes have been made (I'm also in Astronomy), the professors must have been working hard because the quality of lessons is very high.
I admire how much time they have put in this. They work hard to give other Potter fans enchanting and inspiring experience of studying in a wizarding school. There are a lot of people behind HogwartsIsHere and it's amazing to see how hard EVERYONE works to keep it going and active. They have professors, prefects and everything. They have A LIBRARY. In their library you can find your school books and actually read them. It's amazing.
Yes, I know about Pottermore. I'm Slytherin there also. Of course. I AM a Slytherin. But it doesn't give the same experience of learning. Not the same way. Don't get me wrong I love it how you can get a new information about Harry Potter universe in Pottermore, but sometimes I miss authentic feeling of Hogwarts. And it is something HogwartsIsHere gives.
We watched Hercules today and I got annoyed about bending the
truth mythology. Hera wasn't his mother, his name was Herakles and the list goes on. Still I managed to enjoy the movie. It's from the time when they still drew those movies.
I decided to do some reading and came to conclusion that the Greek mythology is the most complex one. I get confused with gods and different creatures and their duties. I have to be honest, this shit is hard to learn. I will try my best because I'm planning my Gods and Goddesses of the World post series. I've tried writing the first one but it's hard because I want every post be the same style and I'm a master of changing style. :'D
And I've been thinking the pattern. Should I post i.e. gods of thunder first then goddesses of motherhood and like that? Should I post in the alphabetical order? Should I post males or females first? I just can't make up my mind. The story of my life.
But now back to the Greek. I think I understand the origins of everything but I'm not sure. I don't know if I don't know what I don't know.
I've been getting weird book ideas lately. Latest one is Jumalapeli (God game in English), but I don't know if I am ever going to publish it. It's going to be a fantasy mixed with religious influences. I like the idea, I like almost all of my ideas, but I have plenty of them and so little time. I'm going to make more time for witchcraft and writing when my summer job (and upper secondary school) ends in 30.5.. I've decided that during the summer I'm going to finish first drafts from two books. I don't decide which ones because then I won't write anything, but when the first snow comes I will have to completed books. Editing will be exciting and new for me, but I don't care actually. I can imagine how good I will feel when I get first drafts done.
Another thing that has happened lately is that evil eye has came to Seinäjoki. Almost five months ago the boy I knew killed himself and from that day, the amount of homicides and accidents have increased almost like an explosion. I have my suspicions about one person, who first arrived here five months ago. At first I thought I was just being paranoid and afraid that I'm becoming insane. In a WhatsApp group I asked if anyone has noticed how these things has been happening almost weekly. So many people have died. Last night I prayed for protection for the whole county. I wish I'm just being paranoid, but I guess I'm not because everyone else are noticing it.
I'm worried but I'm going to find out if I'm right. I hope I'm not.
I'm so awful person. Last time I wrote was four months ago. I've been trying to figure out nice posts, but my creativity has died. Or so it feels.
Today I'm having a Canadian coming over again. I'm so excited, I get to speak English again! I've been looking back to my trip to Canada and having our Canadians here. It's been two years! TWO. Time has passed faster than I thought it would. The week I was in Canada was the best week of my life and I've been stressing about this new Canadian, because I don't know if I can give her same kind of experience. I'm not very social though yesterday I had fun with my Rainbow Support Group. ueers everywhere and stuff. Transgenders too, of course. You get the picture. We had fun, we went to the wicket (? I don't know if it's the right word) and grilled sausages. After that we went to the Bar Nostalgia. Karaoke and Crowmoor.
But back to the Canadian.
I don't know her at all. I don't know what kind of things she likes. I'm so screwed! Oh gods, I wish I knew more than a name. What if she hates witches? What if she's rich and doesn't like my almost poor family? What if she hates fat people? WHAT IF SHE HATES ME?! I hope I'm good enough. I hope she likes it here. What if she hates books? My living room is full of books! I'm walking example of an introvert book nerd.
At the same time I'm afraid that she is just like me. What if she is more talented witch than me and she just laughs at me? Or we are both beginners and we don't have anything to discuss or she is more beginner than me and expects me to teach something to her? I CAN'T TEACH ANYONE ANYTHING. Except little facts about Harry Potter. Oh gods. I don't know anything about anything.
Maybe I should just go and throw up.
I don't know if I can do this.
I'm such a loser.